Wednesday, April 18, 2001

21.4.01



Pain

Gee, my life has been about one word lately...titties...I wanna grow them so bad. Shows how creative I am. I really hate when people get all confusing and hard to trust. Crossed signals are a thing I really hate to deal with, especially when I really liked how things seemed to be going. Friendship is good, almost as good as fuck buddies. Sorry I messed it up again, and to those of you who enjoy with the joking and the other shit, fuck off. I'm feeling vengeful and violent, I'd hate to indulge myself, S&M rules!!! Makes me glad I'm leaving the hall. Maybe the school. They lied to me about the gay community here. Off I go tomorrow maybe to look around for more boys to screw. If only the other problems would fix themselves too it'd be perfect.
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20.4.01




Yum
The only solid food(non sugary or instant) that I've had in the past 4 days now was a small sandwich section tonight and something on Tuesday before work. Other than that I've been living on semen...yum yum yum I love cum! No wonder my papers aren't turning out very stellar, I really should get something lasting. Speaking of lasting, I was wrong about something. #4, telling me to never talk to him again. I predicted 2 weeks until he wanted to fuck to me again, but I was wrong. Turns out he's already apologized for being as mad, but is still mad overall at me. I can see that I definitely need to get used to that weird thing he likes so much.

Looks like the comments are starting to pour in. I'm amazed, I really am. Are any of you people single? Really now...I'm desperate for more love! To respond to Timmy and Co, nice. Nice to see the love shown...when I can get some cash I'll come see you for fun. To Mr Wright: first off, you sexy little bitch. I do thank you for the rose, I for one was amazed that people do have sensitivity nowadays. I'm guessing those ads on the fetish web sites paid off, don't you think? I'm glad you're interested in my escapades with #4, but what I do is my business, if you want to know everything then you'll have to sit and watch it for yourself. Some things don't get mentioned here for legal reasons. Wouldn't you like to know....well I'll give you a hint...it involves some barnyard animals.

Anyways, all of you keep coming back, maybe once it gets going on here I can actually exploit you for some lube $$. It's not like you're good for much more to me. I'm sorry, am I a touch bitter tonight? Not that I care how you react really, but just a bad night at work. To see the beginnings of the real site that I'm eventually going to publish, check out Target My Sexuality where I'm beginning to collect stories about idiot boyfriends and random guys I pick up. Intersted in contributing your horror stories? Writers welcome.
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19.4.01




Power Is Not Optional

Wake up this morning to find that both my vibrator is not working and that the power blipped here yet again during the night. How do I know? My computer is off, my stereo has stopped playing, and my curling iron won't work!!! The vibrator runs from a battery and hasn't been in place that long, so I don't know why it's stopped working. I just hope I saved the other one before I went to bed yesterday.

Yes, it is a little wack to be numbering people like that, but I never claimed to be sane, now did I? It's become more of a comfort thing now, makes me feel a little better somehow. Maybe it's contributing to the whole void that I'm feeling now too, but that's something else to be sorted out. I was hoping to work on it yesterday, but things didn't work out so I could. Instead I hung out with some friends at a sad(but interesting) orgy party. It's late to say now, but still, Happy B-day Jo. And for your questioning last night, as the song says..."I'm a Liar". Song to be up until I need to rotate out the space.
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17.4.01


Idiots these people...

Do they fall from trucks or are they really born this pathetic? Boys just suck! The depths of humanity are inspiring me to make a new blog, just for the stupid boyfriend stories that I have to tell. Keep your comments coming about here, they really are appreciated. I realized that I do have an email link, it's at the bottom on the AIM Remote feature. I'll try to check it every once in a while, so don't get discouraged if I don't answer you back soon, i may forget exactly where it is!
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Again?

Do I ever get peace? Yes, I've been sitting on my sore rear for a while trying to get it back to the right shape, but I didn't expect it to swell so much. My boys are finally being serviced and there seems to be some kind of sorting out in the boyfriend department occuring - #4 told me he wants me to lick his piss off and then cum on my back [finally!], #2 is still the same old situation, there appears to be some kind of jockeying in the area of a possible #5...for those of you who don't know, that means I'll be "riding the horse" pretty soon, and lucky me #3 pokes his head back in last night...if you think about that long enough you'll know what I mean. I do apologize for the idiotic coding, I'll make it more bearable as soon as I know what coding is.

Bought the new Stereophonics album today, Just Enough Education to Perform. Wonderful stuff...in fact it's SUPER!. I've had it on mp3 for a while, but nothing beats having the real thing, especially with the 3 bonus acoustic tracks that Best Buy threw in. All this for USD7.99!! I can make that on Speedway in about 20 minutes!! I'm amazed I finally did something right, showing how good it tastes as well. Back to paper writing, since my haiku writing last night went so well. They'll be on the front page of Raging Homo Romp (better name anybody?) in a little box. [singing into the night] I'm in the back of a truck... he carries money.......
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16.4.01




Stupid Web Tricks

I'm learning various things from different web sites and trying them out, eventually for when I lose all these boyfriends. As hard as it may seem...it really is possible guys! You know what I'm talkin about ;-) The enlarging device worked well on Tyrone as well. Should be interesting as soon as I get it off the ground, and I don't want it to be visible to the world. I wasn't so lucky with the device though. Don't mind the odd look to it, it'll pass for now. Wanna come see it sometime? If so chose to, you should get a friendly little surprise too.
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I HATE FIRE ALARMS!

More specifically, I hate false alarms that occur in the middle of the night when you're in the middle of a little you know what. Yet again it went off, except for once I was going to try and stay in bed through it. I'd rather die then interrupt this guy! It was going off for quite a while when I decided to peek out the window at the people who had left - I figured if I can't see the fire reflected on them, no problem and then I'd be back to the action. I almost stayed in my room through it, but I heard noises that weren't from me or him and decided to put on my pants to investigate. That was the smartest decision made all night as moments later a fireman opens the door and starts asking why I'm not out. It was just like that dream I had the other night! I started fumbling with my belt, when the fireman said he wasn't into that...my little heart was shattered!!! Then I go outside and stand there for a few minutes before the fire dept leaves, those teases, and they tell us to go back to bed, not bothering to tell us a reason why they were in our building or even why they interrupted me and Julio. Lessons learned tonight: have sex with clothes on (or within about 2 seconds reach) just in case, loud noises can be bad but very good at the same time...always have a "safe word" just in case you or your partner goes too far, and not eating semen for 36+ hours is possible but not easy to accompligh. I'm now going to find some crackers to munch on to try to get that taste out of my mouth and then I'm going back to bed. I've learned I actually have a mild relationship going on here. Wonder if I should actually care about him... Nah, that would require a heart and they're already on backorder.
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15.4.01




Joey Ramone is dead. Damn. Shame, especially since I have been trying to act like I like cool music for a change. I found that I like the more masculine guys, they take control a lot easier. Back to Joey, wish I could have seen him live, he was sooooo gorgeous!!! I think I could've convinced him to partake in a one nighter. The world will miss him and his sexy ass.
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13.4.01




Yet another day, I haven't slept since waking up from my coma-like state at around 3-4 something yesterday afternoon and finding another strange guy sleeping next to me. I'm currently waiting for my #2 to call about going out and possibly to the nude beach, he hates tan lines. Something that started out as a conversational joke has turned intself into a personal idiosyncracy now, I refer to my boyfriends by chronological number when making reference to them. No, they're not all at the same time...I couldn't handle them all at once, but it was a transition period that brought about the whole thing, it was easier to say "1's waiting for me and 2's on his way" then to actually say details and have to explain myself dozens of time and have to hear how bad a person I am. I don't like it when people say I'm a bad person...I have a right to live my life this way. Homosexuality is not a disease it's my choice!!!

I'm currently planning an Easter morning artwork, a gigantic rainbow flag resembling the American flag with the field of stars being filled in with my words against the concept of the Judeo-Christian establishment and its overshadowing of the modern world. I plan on hanging this early in the morning Sunday across from where an outdoor service is going to be held. I feel that it is within my rights to make a personal artistic statement without being overly antagonistic or offensive at all heterosexual groups.

3rd 3rd use of the word currently now, as I'm currently listening to a mix CD I burned of Culture Club and Erasure material. Genre is Fag Dance Pop, for more info look on the Hardcore Dancing homepage where it will give the current news in the Homosexual music scene. Also check out The New Queer Music Express, another home to gay music news. Why do I listen to English bands more than American lately? Because it's just more queer than what else is out there. Don't think I have a contact point on here anywhere, I think I'll sign up for another email somewhere so I can let all you wonderful people who accidentally came in here talk back to me. I need some more friends! Also a message board so I can look for pity when I find somewhere to sign up for one or actually become bored enough to write the code myself. Somehow I doubt the last one since I dropped my programming class this semester because Joseph was kicking my ass. Joseph was my ex by the way. He was mad that I spent more time programming than with him.
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Right, I didn't introduce myself for those of you who have no idea who I am. My pseudonym is Blowjob, it's what my boyfriend likes to call me. I'm a college student at Stetson U in Florida, in Deland - the worst possible place to have a college. The only thing to do here is to go somewhere else. No good gay bars around! I'm a huge nut, currently listening to U2, the Manic Street Preachers, and Craig David while I file down my nails. Do enjoy this site, I hope to make it an interesting stop on the net, it should be an interesting tale of me cramming a semester of gay sex into just a few short weeks. IB didn't teach me to bullshit for nothing. I had to pass somehow!
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Ahh, a working blog that doesn't display my real name when I post. Finally. Now I might be able to start stalking on this without making my name known. For now, just check out this site where I'm a regular contributor. I contribute to that site because if I were to say anything about that in real life, I would only be laughed at by my peers. Coldplay's "Yellow" is on MTV right now, it's a miracle they ever play gay things anymore. Where's the "Walk On" video when you need it to ejaculate? Anyways, off for now. This blog maintained with both IE 5.x and Opera 5. Have to love the alternative browsers...just like my alternative lifestyle!
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